Dear Samuel,

The last twenty four hours have been an emotional rollercoaster. Last
night you starting screaming anytime I tried to put you to the breast
and it really upset me. I started really having to consider giving up
this morning when you kept screaming any time I tried to feed you and
by this afternoon I was at the end of my rope and didn't know what to
do. So I let nana look after you while I went and had coffee with a
friend. When I arrived home you were awake and happily kicking your
legs and waving your arms around on your mat on the floor. As soon as
you heard my voice you began looking around for me, the moment I came
over to you, you looked up at me, smiled and my heart melted. It was
at this moment that I decided I would continue trying to get
breastfeeding work at least for a little longer. At your next feed I
again tried the supplement system and this time you nursed and took
happily from me for about half an hour. I just tried the sns again and
again you took from me. You were sucking for half an hour and when you
came off I realized that the tube was too far back which means the
entire time you were having my milk. This has made me feel so much
better and while I know we may still have to give up I have found the
strength to continue trying for a little longer.