Dear Samuel,
This time four weeks ago I was sitting in the chair that I am sitting in right now timing contractions. They were starting to come much more frequently and were becomming much more painful. It was about this time that I knew that I was really in labour and would be meeting you soon. I thought that labour would take hours and hours so when you were born only five hours after we arrived at the hospital I was very surprised and so happy to meet you and hold you in my arms at last.

There are so many things I want to do with you as you grow up, so many experiences that I want to share with you and your daddy. I want us to go overseas and explore the world, I want to teach you how important family is and have you know that your family will always love and support you. I want to show you that its the simple things in life that matter. You don't need to spend a lot of money and have all the latest gadgets to be happy, to be happy all you need in life is a safe roof over your head, a warm bed to sleep in at night, enough good quality healthy food to fill your belly and love and acceptance from your family. It doesn't matter what else you own, if you have these things, if you understand that these things are what is important then you are rich in greater ways then money could ever allow you to be.

Today I had to leave you for a few hours so that I could go and see the doctor and do some food shopping, the whole time I was out all I could think about was getting home to you as quickly as I could. I hate leaving you even for short periods of time, time is passing so quickly that I don't want to miss a moment of your young life. Sometimes I watch you when you are sleeping and think how lucky I am to have you.

Four weeks ago at this point in time I didn't have a clue how much my life was about to change or how much I could love such a little human being. I love you more then all the stars in the sky, I love you more then all the grains of sand on the earth. I love you more today then I did yesterday but not as much as I will love you tomorrow. My love for you grows stronger and deeper with every passing day. Thank you my little man for showing me how deep love can be, thank you for showing me that I can love and be loved without fearing that I will lose that love. Now I know how it feel to love and be loved unconditionaly.

In four weeks you have grown so much and everyday you seem to want to interact with us more and more. When I feed you often you gaze up into my eyes, when I talk to you, sing to you or read to you I know you are listening as your focus is all on me. I can't wait for the day that I hear you call me mum or hear you tell me that you love me, until that day I will tell you how much I love you over and over again so that you grow up knowing that your mummy always loved you no matter what else was happening.