Dearest Samuel,
Today I had to make the heartbreaking decision that it is time to give
up breastfeeding. My beautiful boy I have tried everything there is to
try to make this work for us, herbs, special foods, medication from
the doctor, massage, warm compresses, different holds, tube feeding,
trying to coax you with the dummy or a bottle and swapping everything.
I wanted so much to give you the very best but it's just working out.
I don't know what else I can do now except to say okay I have done my
best but now it's time to let it go. If I don't every feedtime is
going to continue to be a fight and I don't want to look back on this
special time with resentment that every day felt like a battle. I want
to remember this time as one of the best times in my life. I'm sorry I
couldn't make it work little man, I so wanted too and I love the
closeness I feel when we do have a good feed but every feed is getting
harder and I feel it's better for us to both be happy then to be
stressed and upset over this.

There is a lesson in all of this baby boy, sometimes in life it's okay
to say enough is enough. When you have tried everything you can to
make something work and it all fails there is no shame in giving up.
As long as you tried your hardest and gave it your best I will always
be proud of you no matter the cicumstance.

I love you little man
Mum