My dearest Samuel,

As I write this daddy is feeding you and you are happily having your
bottle at the same time as dozing. You haven't fed as much today as
you usualy do but I am not so worried as everything else is normal.
This morning after your bottle I decided to try and see if you wanted
to nurse from me as I had a fair bit of milk and wanted you to have
it. To my joy you did nurse while only for a short period of time it
was long enough for me to feel like you do want my milk. In some ways
things are starting to settle down into a sort of routine now. While
days are still messy and I never know what you are going to do or want
the nights now are usualy the same. We get you into your bed somewhere
between 9.00pm and 10.00pm and you sleep until daddy gets you up for a
dream/night feed between one and two in the morning. After that feed
and a nappy change you go back to sleep and sleep through until around
5.30am (though sometimes this can be as late as six or seven am) when
I give you your morning bottle. We go back to bed after this with you
coming into our bed and sleeping in my arms or against me until we get
up at about 10.30. At this time our day starts, we get up, get
dressed, you have another bottle and I have breakfast. After breakfast
we might go out to the shops or have a visitor. If it's just the two
of us you play on your playmat for a while while I do some housework
and then we sing some songs, read a book, pat the cat then I try to
settle you for a nap. After this point anything can happen with our
day.

When I look at you I am filled with such an overwhelming love that I
don't know how I ever lived without you in my life. It seems like a
hundred years have passed since it was just me and your dad and while
life is much different now to what it was then I wouldn't change a
thing. You make me happier then I have ever been before, happier then
I can put into words. I want so much to guide you and help you grow up
a wonderful human being. I can not wait to show you the world and
watch you explore it.