No more daycare

My little man,
It is far too long since I last wrote to you, somehow as the days flow by with you and your sister I lose track of the time and before I know it weeks have gone by. Easter has come and gone and this year you got your first easter egg all to yourself that mummy didn't later steal away. You loved it and now ask every day for an easter egg.

Since Abigail was born we have had a lot of issues getting you to go to daycare, you cry and scream and beg to be allowed to stay at home and to be honest every time I have dropped you off I have felt guilty and felt like what I was doing was so against my instincts that I have come home and cried. On friday we had another round of this and instead of forcing it I gave up, pulled you on to my lap and told you that you could stay home. I held you close and told you that I was sorry i kept sending you away and that from now on you could stay home with Abigail and I, at least until it's time to go to kinder. I'm not sure you understood what I was saying my little man so let me say it again here now.

I am sorry that for so long I have sent you away from me for two days a week, I'm sorry that I didn't keep you at home and do the things that you do at daycare here at home. I'm sorry I listened to other people tell me that you needed to be socialised and stimulated and that only daycare could give you that. I now know that at your age thats far from what you need, that what you need is a nice secure home base where you feel safe, loved and wanted and that is what I am going to give you now and do everything i can to make up for sending you away from me so often.

From the middle of this year we are going to start Kinder however I am going to homeschool you for kinder so that you will still be at home with Abigail and I. I look forward to fun we are going to have together, of teaching you myself and watching you learn and grow, of seeing you flourish and become the best you can be. Until July I am spending the time collecting the materials we will need and just enjoying being with you.

I Love you little man and can not wait to spend more time with you.

Love
Mummy