Dear Samuel,
It is new years eve, the end to 2011 with 2012 about to start. You and I have been through much this year my little man and you have amazed me with just how well you adapt to every new situation we have found ourselves in. I have so many hopes and dreams for us for the new year but most of all I want you to be happy, to be secure and to know that you are very loved. I want 2012 to be the best year for us, I am going to stive to create the future I want for you, a future where we are secure, happy and loved, where we don't have to struggle every day and wonder where we will find the money to pay the bills. I look at you and you make me want so much more then we have now. I want so much to give you the world but I will settle for just giving you love and security.
Happy new year my little man
Love always
Mummy.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Happy birthday
This time two years ago I was just about to meet you my beautiful little man for the first time). I don't think I ever realized just how much would change in my life by becoming a parent nor how much it would change me. Now I look back and I can't believe how much my life has changed in that two years, at times it felt like time dragged at other times it flew and I found myself wondering where time was going but every single day I've fallen more in love with you, when you smile at me, hug me, kiss me, when i hear you say love you mummy, when you do something new or even when you are sad and come running into my arms so that mummy can make the world better for you that love I've had since you were first placed into my arms has only grown stronger and deeper. You are the light of my world and have made my world such a better place.
Little man mummy's world changed the day you were born and when mummy looked in your eyes for the first time she felt a love that nothing could ever compare too.
I love you so much my beautiful boy. Happy 2nd birthday.
Little man mummy's world changed the day you were born and when mummy looked in your eyes for the first time she felt a love that nothing could ever compare too.
I love you so much my beautiful boy. Happy 2nd birthday.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Dear Samuel,
It is only four more sleeps until you turn two. I can't believe how quickly time is passing, how quickly you have become a little boy who is getting more and more independent every day. It wasn't that long ago I held you in my arms for the first time and gazed into your newborn eyes, it hasn't been that long since I thought I would never get to sleep for longer then a few hours without you waking up and needing me yet here we are almost two years on and you now sleep through the night most night. So much has changed and you are growing so fast that I just wish I could pause time and enjoy you how you are for longer.
You are growing so well and learning so much. At last count you had over a hundred words with some small sentences. You have good balance and enjoy climbing and dancing, you love music, reading and drawing and like all little boys you enjoy running around, playing with balls, cars and trains and are so full of energy I am often left wondering how I can keep up with you. In the next year you will change even more, grow more and gain even more words, you will begin asking why and communicating better, you will learn to use the toilet, start dressing yourself, give up the dummy and bottle. Right now you are still my little baby in some ways but this time next year you will be all small child. What an interesting year it will be.
Always I will love you and be here for you.
forever loved
Mummy.
It is only four more sleeps until you turn two. I can't believe how quickly time is passing, how quickly you have become a little boy who is getting more and more independent every day. It wasn't that long ago I held you in my arms for the first time and gazed into your newborn eyes, it hasn't been that long since I thought I would never get to sleep for longer then a few hours without you waking up and needing me yet here we are almost two years on and you now sleep through the night most night. So much has changed and you are growing so fast that I just wish I could pause time and enjoy you how you are for longer.
You are growing so well and learning so much. At last count you had over a hundred words with some small sentences. You have good balance and enjoy climbing and dancing, you love music, reading and drawing and like all little boys you enjoy running around, playing with balls, cars and trains and are so full of energy I am often left wondering how I can keep up with you. In the next year you will change even more, grow more and gain even more words, you will begin asking why and communicating better, you will learn to use the toilet, start dressing yourself, give up the dummy and bottle. Right now you are still my little baby in some ways but this time next year you will be all small child. What an interesting year it will be.
Always I will love you and be here for you.
forever loved
Mummy.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Today marks one year since you, daddy and I arrived in Perth. That one year has seen so many changes in our lives and since I last wrote to you here there have been still more changes.
At the begining of September nanna came over for a visit from Townsville, she arrived late on Saturday night after you had gone to bed and then when you woke up on Sunday morning there she was. At first you were a little bit shy but within half an hour you remembered here and wanted nothing to do with mum you were so busy playing with nanna. You, nanna and I were so happy to be catching up with each other but little did we know that our world would be turned upside down only a few short hours later.
Nanna had taken you for a walk to the shops and I was tidying up the house when all of a sudden I heard a noise coming from the loungeroom I had turned to walk back into the room when suddenly the ceiling crashed down right in front of me. It was scary little man and only missed me by a single step but all i could think at the moment was thank goodness you were not in the house. There was mess everywhere and the loungeroom and kitchen looked like the sort of diaster area you see on TV. Not knowing what else to do I called Grandma and Daddy who came and took you back to their place while nanna and I sorted out somewhere for us to go. In the end we moved in with the person who i had just started dating. You stayed at daddy and grandma's house for a few days while I set up your bedroom and got everything sorted for you to come home too. Nanna stayed for another ten days and you had a great time playing with her and watching the wiggles.
Time continued forward and we settled in to the house with Jeff but then after a few weeks Jeff got a letter saying that we had to move out. We were stressed for a little while but we found a house and were accepted for it on only the second application we submitted. Last week you, Jeff and I moved into our new house and I have been getting it all set up. It's a really nice place for the three of us to live and be happy in and the best news of all is that we don't have to move again for at least another year hopefully longer.
Anyway little man I should tell you more about Jeff since he is a big part of our lives now. You love Jeff and from time to time you do call him daddy, we correct you as you already have a daddy but it makes mummy so happy to see you laughing and giggling when Jeff plays with you. Jeff loves you very much to little man, he see's you as the son that he doesn't have and treats you as such in every way. As for me well I am happy and very much in love with him. i feel sad sometimes that I could not have this happiness and feelings with your father but your father and I are two very different people, although I do still love him in a way its not the way that you should love someone in a relationship but more the sort of love you have for a sibling or a close friend. I think I will always love you father in that way but it's very different from how I feel about Jeff. With you and Jeff I feel like the luckiest women in the world. I look at you and smile and feel so grateful that you are mine, you are a very special gift that your father gave to me and for that alone he will always have a special place in mummy's heart but Jeff is very different from daddy. He is older then mummy and more settled in his life, he also has a little girl of his own that he see's as often as he can.
Samuel there is one thing that I really want you to know. Love comes in many different forms and sometimes we get confused over just what type of love it is we are feeling. Sometimes people stay in relationships where they don't love somebody in the right way because they feel like they have too for their children but little man one day you will be all grown up, you will fall in and our of love and like everybody you will make mistakes too. I want you to know that if you find yourself in a situation where you think you have to stay just because it's the right thing or 'for the children' that either of those choices isn't the right choice and there is no shame at all in ending a relationship if it's not working out as long as if children are involved you strive to always have a relationship with your child and take responsability for your child. I don't doubt that you will grow up to be an honorable man who will do everything he can for his children and who will put his children first which is why I am telling you this. Sometime's even when you think you are putting your child first it is still the wrong thing to do and may just hurt them in the long run. If I had off stayed with your daddy as you grew up you would have known that something was wrong and more likely then not at the years past daddy and I would have ended up hating each other but because we realized that things were not working and made the choice to end it we are now able to stay friends and jointly raise you, we are able to discuss what we want for you and the best way to look after you and because we are both happy the life you are living is happy too. When you are grown up you will understand that if your not happy then it is hard for those around you to be happy too.
I love you little man and so many other people do too. I can't wait to see you in the morning, to see your smile and have you give me big hugs and kisses and maybe if I am lucky you will say 'i love you'
At the begining of September nanna came over for a visit from Townsville, she arrived late on Saturday night after you had gone to bed and then when you woke up on Sunday morning there she was. At first you were a little bit shy but within half an hour you remembered here and wanted nothing to do with mum you were so busy playing with nanna. You, nanna and I were so happy to be catching up with each other but little did we know that our world would be turned upside down only a few short hours later.
Nanna had taken you for a walk to the shops and I was tidying up the house when all of a sudden I heard a noise coming from the loungeroom I had turned to walk back into the room when suddenly the ceiling crashed down right in front of me. It was scary little man and only missed me by a single step but all i could think at the moment was thank goodness you were not in the house. There was mess everywhere and the loungeroom and kitchen looked like the sort of diaster area you see on TV. Not knowing what else to do I called Grandma and Daddy who came and took you back to their place while nanna and I sorted out somewhere for us to go. In the end we moved in with the person who i had just started dating. You stayed at daddy and grandma's house for a few days while I set up your bedroom and got everything sorted for you to come home too. Nanna stayed for another ten days and you had a great time playing with her and watching the wiggles.
Time continued forward and we settled in to the house with Jeff but then after a few weeks Jeff got a letter saying that we had to move out. We were stressed for a little while but we found a house and were accepted for it on only the second application we submitted. Last week you, Jeff and I moved into our new house and I have been getting it all set up. It's a really nice place for the three of us to live and be happy in and the best news of all is that we don't have to move again for at least another year hopefully longer.
Anyway little man I should tell you more about Jeff since he is a big part of our lives now. You love Jeff and from time to time you do call him daddy, we correct you as you already have a daddy but it makes mummy so happy to see you laughing and giggling when Jeff plays with you. Jeff loves you very much to little man, he see's you as the son that he doesn't have and treats you as such in every way. As for me well I am happy and very much in love with him. i feel sad sometimes that I could not have this happiness and feelings with your father but your father and I are two very different people, although I do still love him in a way its not the way that you should love someone in a relationship but more the sort of love you have for a sibling or a close friend. I think I will always love you father in that way but it's very different from how I feel about Jeff. With you and Jeff I feel like the luckiest women in the world. I look at you and smile and feel so grateful that you are mine, you are a very special gift that your father gave to me and for that alone he will always have a special place in mummy's heart but Jeff is very different from daddy. He is older then mummy and more settled in his life, he also has a little girl of his own that he see's as often as he can.
Samuel there is one thing that I really want you to know. Love comes in many different forms and sometimes we get confused over just what type of love it is we are feeling. Sometimes people stay in relationships where they don't love somebody in the right way because they feel like they have too for their children but little man one day you will be all grown up, you will fall in and our of love and like everybody you will make mistakes too. I want you to know that if you find yourself in a situation where you think you have to stay just because it's the right thing or 'for the children' that either of those choices isn't the right choice and there is no shame at all in ending a relationship if it's not working out as long as if children are involved you strive to always have a relationship with your child and take responsability for your child. I don't doubt that you will grow up to be an honorable man who will do everything he can for his children and who will put his children first which is why I am telling you this. Sometime's even when you think you are putting your child first it is still the wrong thing to do and may just hurt them in the long run. If I had off stayed with your daddy as you grew up you would have known that something was wrong and more likely then not at the years past daddy and I would have ended up hating each other but because we realized that things were not working and made the choice to end it we are now able to stay friends and jointly raise you, we are able to discuss what we want for you and the best way to look after you and because we are both happy the life you are living is happy too. When you are grown up you will understand that if your not happy then it is hard for those around you to be happy too.
I love you little man and so many other people do too. I can't wait to see you in the morning, to see your smile and have you give me big hugs and kisses and maybe if I am lucky you will say 'i love you'
Monday, August 29, 2011
My little man, it breaks my heart to type what i must tell you as not long ago it was the last think i could have imagined. For many reasons your father and I have decided that we shouldn't be together, i don't think it is fair for us to raise you with the tension of a relationship that isnt working and that was only staying together because of you and so we have gone our separate ways. I am doing everything I can my beautiful boy to make sure you have a good relationship with daddy, to make sure you spend plenty of time with him and as you get older I will never stop you from seeing your father as despite anything that has happened between him and I it is your right to know and have a relationship with your father, i know how much you love him and I could never ever keep you away from him because of that.
For the most part little man you will be living with me, together you and I will take on the world, i will do everything I can to show you the world beautiful boy and i will always always be here loving you and ready to wrap my arms around you anytime you need me no matter how old you get.
I love you Samuel and always will.
Love
Mummy
For the most part little man you will be living with me, together you and I will take on the world, i will do everything I can to show you the world beautiful boy and i will always always be here loving you and ready to wrap my arms around you anytime you need me no matter how old you get.
I love you Samuel and always will.
Love
Mummy
Thursday, August 11, 2011
It's raining it's poring
Dear Samuel,
It's winter here in Perth and while it's not as cold as the winter we spent in Victoria last year it has been wet the last few weeks. This last week it has rained almost every day, the only day that it was dry you were at daycare so we couldn't get out and enjoy it. The wet weather is making life difficult for us, it's hard to get to shops because we don't have a car and have to walk everywhere and without the ability to go outside or go to the park I think that you a beginning to climb the walls you are that bored. I am trying hard to keep you amused and find new things to do with you. This week we have painted, colored, baked muffins (you stirred the mix), danced, played with blocks, trains and indoor balls, blown bubbles and read the same story so many times I now know it by heart.
You are at such a fun stage right now, learning new things all the time and starting to be much more interactive with myself and other people. It's so much fun sitting down with you to play and sing songs or try to teach you new things and so rewarding when you do come out with new words or do something completely unexpected.
Hopefully the rain will stop soon and we can get back to spending lots of time outside.
I love you little man
Mummy
Friday, July 22, 2011
Untitled
Six weeks have passed since last I wrote but in that time we haven't done all that much. There were a few family birthday partys that we attended including daddys and mine, we've had a couple of play dates and been to the park but most days are very similar to the ones before.
I was watching you play last night and it really hit home that you are not my little baby anymore, sometime in the last six months you have grown into a little boy doing little boy things like playing with cars and trains, throwing balls around and stacking blocks. I'm a little sad to no longer have my tiny little baby boy but do you know what? I love this age, you are so much fun to with and make me smile every day. No matter how bad I am feeling you will still do something that brings a smile to my face.
You are rapidly advancing with words and things you are able to do little man, every week brings new words and sounds, every week sees you trying to be that little bit more independant. You now want to walk most times when we are out rather then riding in the pram, at dinner time you feed yourself and will not let daddy or I help even with difficult foods like yogurt. I think that you have started noticing when your nappy is wet because you will suddenly pull your pants off and try to pull your nappy off, everytime you do this if I check you I find a wet or dirty nappy. I am considering buying a potty this weekend and while not starting to actively toilet train you yet I am planning on putting you on the potty a couple of times a day so that you become familar with it.
Daddy is no longer working nights so you are getting to spend time with him every afternoon and evening. Your sleep at nights is slowely getting better and we are now able to resettle you in your cot rather then having to sit up on the couch with you all night.
My lov for you little man is still growing, I can not imagine a time in my life where I will not love you, where my love will does continue to grow and get bigger. It is only through having you in my life little man that I have learnt what love really is and for that I thank you.
Love always
Mummy
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
My little boy,
Once again I find it's been some time since last I wrote but there's not been anything really to write about. Life continues along at a steady pace, we have settled into our home and have adjusted to daddy working full time. We have playdates, see grandma and everyone there, go shopping, play at home and just live our normal every day life. I know it sounds boring but this is reality. The majority of moments in our lives pass in doing everyday mundane things, sometimes something special happens that sets a day apart as bring different from the rest and you deal with those days as they occur but it's everyday living, doing the mundane normal everyday stuff that makes up our lives and either makes us happy or sad.
I enjoy our everyday life, I love spending time with you, playing with you and watching you grow and develop. I may not write to you as much anymore but things don't usually happen in such a noticeable way like they did when it was your first word or first step. You're still growing and learning all the time though and i get great joy out of your new things. Most recently your new things have been saying 'me please' when you want something and a lot of no, me and mine. You have also started trying to sing along to songs in your own words but still following the right tune. You do this with twinkle twinkle, big red car, ABCD, the giggle and hoot song, quake quake and the most recent happy birthday.
On my birthday you amazed us little man. Just after everybody had sung and the candle were blown out you started singing mummy happy birthday. You did it in tune and while you used your own words they sounded so very similar to the real words that we had to stop and ask everyone else there what they had heard. Even more amazing about this little man was that you had only ever heard that song a few times before and you did it so well. It was the best most special birthday present that you could have given mummy.
I love you my beautiful clever little man.
Love always
Mummy.
Once again I find it's been some time since last I wrote but there's not been anything really to write about. Life continues along at a steady pace, we have settled into our home and have adjusted to daddy working full time. We have playdates, see grandma and everyone there, go shopping, play at home and just live our normal every day life. I know it sounds boring but this is reality. The majority of moments in our lives pass in doing everyday mundane things, sometimes something special happens that sets a day apart as bring different from the rest and you deal with those days as they occur but it's everyday living, doing the mundane normal everyday stuff that makes up our lives and either makes us happy or sad.
I enjoy our everyday life, I love spending time with you, playing with you and watching you grow and develop. I may not write to you as much anymore but things don't usually happen in such a noticeable way like they did when it was your first word or first step. You're still growing and learning all the time though and i get great joy out of your new things. Most recently your new things have been saying 'me please' when you want something and a lot of no, me and mine. You have also started trying to sing along to songs in your own words but still following the right tune. You do this with twinkle twinkle, big red car, ABCD, the giggle and hoot song, quake quake and the most recent happy birthday.
On my birthday you amazed us little man. Just after everybody had sung and the candle were blown out you started singing mummy happy birthday. You did it in tune and while you used your own words they sounded so very similar to the real words that we had to stop and ask everyone else there what they had heard. Even more amazing about this little man was that you had only ever heard that song a few times before and you did it so well. It was the best most special birthday present that you could have given mummy.
I love you my beautiful clever little man.
Love always
Mummy.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Again it's been a while since my last post, not because my feelings have changed - well they have but only in the way that each and every day I fall even deeper in love with you my little man. Not a day goes by that i don't look at you and think how much I love you and how happy I am that I'm your mummy at least once. It doesn't matter if we have had a rough day, it doesn't matter what else is happening on our world the only constant thing is my love for you and my desire to raise you the best that I can.
We haven't done much lately just spent a lot of time at home settling in to our new place and getting use to it being just us and daddy without other people around all the time. We've been to grandmas and Aunty becky's a couple of time and out a few times but most days are similar to the previous day. We get up, eat, play, nap, read, play, eat, nap, go for a walk or see a friend, we play in the backyard, listen to music and just recently we have started art time with drawing and painting most days.
You started at your new daycare centre this week and have settled in really well. It's much closer to home so I can drop you off later and pick you up earlier. The centre and carers are a lot better too. It was sad to say goodbye to the old daycare centre but I really like this one.
Tomorrow night we are going to the twins birthday party. They are turning three and we are giving them a toy kitchen.
We haven't done much lately just spent a lot of time at home settling in to our new place and getting use to it being just us and daddy without other people around all the time. We've been to grandmas and Aunty becky's a couple of time and out a few times but most days are similar to the previous day. We get up, eat, play, nap, read, play, eat, nap, go for a walk or see a friend, we play in the backyard, listen to music and just recently we have started art time with drawing and painting most days.
You started at your new daycare centre this week and have settled in really well. It's much closer to home so I can drop you off later and pick you up earlier. The centre and carers are a lot better too. It was sad to say goodbye to the old daycare centre but I really like this one.
Tomorrow night we are going to the twins birthday party. They are turning three and we are giving them a toy kitchen.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Easter 2011
Little man we have had such a good ling weekend together with daddy. This weekend was Easter and so we did all the Easter things. Hot cross buns on good Friday, lots of family time ad the story of Jesus rising from the tomb on Easter Sunday. However the most fun thing we did was the Easter egg hunt.
I didn't think you were old enough for a hunt yet but you proved me wrong. When I took you outside you went straight for the pretty eggs in bright foil and ran around the backyard laughing and finding them then taking them back to your bucket. It was so much fun sharing your first Easter egg hunt with you and watching your eyes light up as you discovered there was chocolate under the foil.
You have brought me the joy of these holidays in a way I've never known. Growing up Easter was never a big thing in nanna's house, we got a few eggs, had a couple of hunts and then it was all over but this year has been different. This year seeing your joy brought me joy too and remembering why we have Easter and telling you the story of it brought meaning to it. Instead of just a few days off spent at home eating chocolate it was special occasion and I hope that every year we can make it special.
I didn't think you were old enough for a hunt yet but you proved me wrong. When I took you outside you went straight for the pretty eggs in bright foil and ran around the backyard laughing and finding them then taking them back to your bucket. It was so much fun sharing your first Easter egg hunt with you and watching your eyes light up as you discovered there was chocolate under the foil.
You have brought me the joy of these holidays in a way I've never known. Growing up Easter was never a big thing in nanna's house, we got a few eggs, had a couple of hunts and then it was all over but this year has been different. This year seeing your joy brought me joy too and remembering why we have Easter and telling you the story of it brought meaning to it. Instead of just a few days off spent at home eating chocolate it was special occasion and I hope that every year we can make it special.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Dear little man,
You are amazing me every day with how quickly you are learning new things and all the things you can do now. Only a year ago you were a tiny little baby and now you are growing into a beautiful little boy. The most rapid devlopement we are seeing is occuring within speech and lanquage. In the last week you have
- Said ' little star' while doing the actions to the song.
- Said 'daddy' instead of da da
- Said 'one, two, three'
- Said 'no'
- Said 'ta' and your version of 'thank you'
- Said 'car' as you handed me a car toy as well as when you see grandma's car.
So many new words in such a short time and i'm amazed that you are already starting to put two words together.
Daycare is going well, you have now settled in so well that the moment that we get there you just want to be put down so you can run of and play or climb. You barely even notice me leaving you and when you do you wave goodbye. You slept well at daycare and eat more there then you do at home. I still miss you on those daycare days and wish that you were home with me but I can see how happy you are there and how much you enjoy it so for now at least we will keep going.
I want to start you in kindermusik and swimming lessons after easter so that we have something special that we do together. I also want you to know how to swim for safety reasons and because its something that i love doing and hope to share that love with you. If we do end up leaving daycare I am going to find us a playgroup so that you can still have that interaction and fun with other children.
I love you little man and want to give you all the oppurtunitys I can, you inspire me to want to make our life together better and so that days that you are in daycare I am studying so that I can get a degree and be able to work from home one day. If i am able to work from home then I will be able to arrange work around you my beautiful boy and still have that little bit of extra money to do special things like take you overseas or pay for a good school rather then sending you to the local public school.
I'm about to leave to pick you up from daycare little man, I can't wait to give you a big hug and tell you that I love you.
You are amazing me every day with how quickly you are learning new things and all the things you can do now. Only a year ago you were a tiny little baby and now you are growing into a beautiful little boy. The most rapid devlopement we are seeing is occuring within speech and lanquage. In the last week you have
- Said ' little star' while doing the actions to the song.
- Said 'daddy' instead of da da
- Said 'one, two, three'
- Said 'no'
- Said 'ta' and your version of 'thank you'
- Said 'car' as you handed me a car toy as well as when you see grandma's car.
So many new words in such a short time and i'm amazed that you are already starting to put two words together.
Daycare is going well, you have now settled in so well that the moment that we get there you just want to be put down so you can run of and play or climb. You barely even notice me leaving you and when you do you wave goodbye. You slept well at daycare and eat more there then you do at home. I still miss you on those daycare days and wish that you were home with me but I can see how happy you are there and how much you enjoy it so for now at least we will keep going.
I want to start you in kindermusik and swimming lessons after easter so that we have something special that we do together. I also want you to know how to swim for safety reasons and because its something that i love doing and hope to share that love with you. If we do end up leaving daycare I am going to find us a playgroup so that you can still have that interaction and fun with other children.
I love you little man and want to give you all the oppurtunitys I can, you inspire me to want to make our life together better and so that days that you are in daycare I am studying so that I can get a degree and be able to work from home one day. If i am able to work from home then I will be able to arrange work around you my beautiful boy and still have that little bit of extra money to do special things like take you overseas or pay for a good school rather then sending you to the local public school.
I'm about to leave to pick you up from daycare little man, I can't wait to give you a big hug and tell you that I love you.
Monday, March 21, 2011
dedication
Samuels dedication was today and I have to say it was a fantastic day.
Today started early when Samuel decided it was time to get up at 5.30am after keeping us awake half the night screaming everytime he was put in the cot and kicking us in bed. I think I only managed three hours sleep last night. This morning before heading to church grandma and I did prep work for the morning tea at church and celebration BBQ at home then we got ready, woke Samuel who had gone back down for a nap got him dressed and left for church.
On arrival at church we had a quick meeting with our minister Paul and then it was time to start. As the dedication was part of our usual sunday service we did the usual prayers, songs and offerings and then it was time for the dedication. The dedication began with the sldeshow of Samuel's life so far and then it was on to the vows Adam and I were making and the prayers for Samuel, then signing the certificate. In the Salvation Army a dedication service is fairly short but with the addition of our slideshow and a song it took up a little bit of time. Once the dedication was over Adam took Samuel into Sunday school while I stayed for the sermon. Today's sermon was all related to what it means to give your child to God (which we had just done) and how to raise them in a Christian home.
Once church was over we had morning tea at church before heading home for our BBQ. As we had done all the prep in the morning and the guys were cooking all we had to do was take the food out then sit down and relax. Samuel slept for the first two hours so I got to switch off and enjoy spending time with friends and family. The BBQ was fantastic. It went all afternoon with great conversation, playing with the kids, relaxing, eating and enjoying each others company. The BBQ began at 12.30 at 5.00pm we put more meat on the BBQ and had dinner as well. Thanks to our ministers teenage daughter I got to relax more than usual too as she was only to happy to run around after Samuel keeping him out of trouble.
Everyone has only now just left at 7.45pm, I'm exhausted as was Samuel who went down without a fuss. It was a perfect Sunday. A special event, relaxed BBQ, great chat and perfect weather to watch the day slip into night and the massive full moon rise. It was great celebrating the gift that has been given to us, it may have happened later than usual but it happened.
Today started early when Samuel decided it was time to get up at 5.30am after keeping us awake half the night screaming everytime he was put in the cot and kicking us in bed. I think I only managed three hours sleep last night. This morning before heading to church grandma and I did prep work for the morning tea at church and celebration BBQ at home then we got ready, woke Samuel who had gone back down for a nap got him dressed and left for church.
On arrival at church we had a quick meeting with our minister Paul and then it was time to start. As the dedication was part of our usual sunday service we did the usual prayers, songs and offerings and then it was time for the dedication. The dedication began with the sldeshow of Samuel's life so far and then it was on to the vows Adam and I were making and the prayers for Samuel, then signing the certificate. In the Salvation Army a dedication service is fairly short but with the addition of our slideshow and a song it took up a little bit of time. Once the dedication was over Adam took Samuel into Sunday school while I stayed for the sermon. Today's sermon was all related to what it means to give your child to God (which we had just done) and how to raise them in a Christian home.
Once church was over we had morning tea at church before heading home for our BBQ. As we had done all the prep in the morning and the guys were cooking all we had to do was take the food out then sit down and relax. Samuel slept for the first two hours so I got to switch off and enjoy spending time with friends and family. The BBQ was fantastic. It went all afternoon with great conversation, playing with the kids, relaxing, eating and enjoying each others company. The BBQ began at 12.30 at 5.00pm we put more meat on the BBQ and had dinner as well. Thanks to our ministers teenage daughter I got to relax more than usual too as she was only to happy to run around after Samuel keeping him out of trouble.
Everyone has only now just left at 7.45pm, I'm exhausted as was Samuel who went down without a fuss. It was a perfect Sunday. A special event, relaxed BBQ, great chat and perfect weather to watch the day slip into night and the massive full moon rise. It was great celebrating the gift that has been given to us, it may have happened later than usual but it happened.
Friday, March 18, 2011
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Dear Samuel,
This week has been a really good one for us. You are back to only two daycare days a week and I feel two is perfect as it still gives me plenty of time to spend with you. I really enjoyed spending time with you this week. We have been stacking blocks, pushing them over, reading, playing with your trucks, watching the wiggles and dancing, drawing and just enjoying being together.
This week you have really turned into a climber, you are into and on everything all the time. New words this week have also arrived. Pepper (the dogs name), ot oh (that you say when you push something over or are into something you shouldn't be) and car. You are also clapping yourself. It's so funny little man. You begin to build a tower of blocks and after each one added you clap and look to us to clap. You also clap when you climb up on something or do pretty much anything that you want us to notice. The last thing this week has brought is two new teeth. Not many to go now and you will have them all.
This week you have given me so much joy and brought so many smiles to my face. I love you little man. Thank you for lighting up my world, through you I am learning to live again, through you I have learnt to love again and with you I am growing and learning every single day.
Love
Mummy
Dear Samuel,
This week has been a really good one for us. You are back to only two daycare days a week and I feel two is perfect as it still gives me plenty of time to spend with you. I really enjoyed spending time with you this week. We have been stacking blocks, pushing them over, reading, playing with your trucks, watching the wiggles and dancing, drawing and just enjoying being together.
This week you have really turned into a climber, you are into and on everything all the time. New words this week have also arrived. Pepper (the dogs name), ot oh (that you say when you push something over or are into something you shouldn't be) and car. You are also clapping yourself. It's so funny little man. You begin to build a tower of blocks and after each one added you clap and look to us to clap. You also clap when you climb up on something or do pretty much anything that you want us to notice. The last thing this week has brought is two new teeth. Not many to go now and you will have them all.
This week you have given me so much joy and brought so many smiles to my face. I love you little man. Thank you for lighting up my world, through you I am learning to live again, through you I have learnt to love again and with you I am growing and learning every single day.
Love
Mummy
This week has been a really good one for us. You are back to only two daycare days a week and I feel two is perfect as it still gives me plenty of time to spend with you. I really enjoyed spending time with you this week. We have been stacking blocks, pushing them over, reading, playing with your trucks, watching the wiggles and dancing, drawing and just enjoying being together.
This week you have really turned into a climber, you are into and on everything all the time. New words this week have also arrived. Pepper (the dogs name), ot oh (that you say when you push something over or are into something you shouldn't be) and car. You are also clapping yourself. It's so funny little man. You begin to build a tower of blocks and after each one added you clap and look to us to clap. You also clap when you climb up on something or do pretty much anything that you want us to notice. The last thing this week has brought is two new teeth. Not many to go now and you will have them all.
This week you have given me so much joy and brought so many smiles to my face. I love you little man. Thank you for lighting up my world, through you I am learning to live again, through you I have learnt to love again and with you I am growing and learning every single day.
Love
Mummy
Friday, March 11, 2011
Dear Samuel,
This week is your last week of doing three days a week at daycare, while the time you have been away has helped me get a little better with my illness I have missed you so much. As of next week you will only be doing two days a week and we may look at dropping that back to one in the future too. I'm hoping to go back to university next semester but right now I dont know if I will as it would mean three days a week away from you plus extra time having to spend time studying and not playing with you some of the time your home.
I hate being away from you little man, hate the idea that if you get upset I won't be there to comfort you or hold you. Despite hating being away from you I can see that daycare is good for you. Since starting there you have gotten so much better at being around other children, you have become more independent and now use a spoon to feed yourself, you are babbling more too and some of those sounds are beginning to sound like real words. I am sure that you are going to start talking earlier then you would have otherwise because of daycare.
This week again nothing has really happened. We've spent time with Aunty Becky and your cousins, played outside, sung songs and danced and just enjoyed our time together. You've learnt to stack blocks now so we've been playing with them a fair bit and you love pulling your wagon along and filling it with your favorite toys.
I love you little man.
Always
Mummy.
This week is your last week of doing three days a week at daycare, while the time you have been away has helped me get a little better with my illness I have missed you so much. As of next week you will only be doing two days a week and we may look at dropping that back to one in the future too. I'm hoping to go back to university next semester but right now I dont know if I will as it would mean three days a week away from you plus extra time having to spend time studying and not playing with you some of the time your home.
I hate being away from you little man, hate the idea that if you get upset I won't be there to comfort you or hold you. Despite hating being away from you I can see that daycare is good for you. Since starting there you have gotten so much better at being around other children, you have become more independent and now use a spoon to feed yourself, you are babbling more too and some of those sounds are beginning to sound like real words. I am sure that you are going to start talking earlier then you would have otherwise because of daycare.
This week again nothing has really happened. We've spent time with Aunty Becky and your cousins, played outside, sung songs and danced and just enjoyed our time together. You've learnt to stack blocks now so we've been playing with them a fair bit and you love pulling your wagon along and filling it with your favorite toys.
I love you little man.
Always
Mummy.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Hi little man,
As I write this note you are sitting in front of me eating a bowl of cherios and watching postman pat. It's so good to see you feeling better, happy and eating. The last two weeks that you have been sick have felt very very long. It hurts me when your unwell and there is nothing I can do but hold you and try to tell you that you will get better soon. Im so glad your back to yourself now.
We are planning your dedication ceremony at church at the moment. It is happening in a couple of weeks and I'm quite excited about it. In the ceremony daddy and I will both make promises to raise you in a Christian home and to teach you about the lord as you grow up. While I hope one day you will also choose to be a Christian when your older the choice will be yours and if you choose to go another way we will never force our beliefs on you. That's for you alone to decide when your bigger.
Yesterday you drew your first picture little man using three colors red, blue and green. You were so excited seeing the color go on to the paper and now everytime you go in to the study you just want to draw. Perhaps we have a budding artist on our hands though with your love of music who knows. You will be what ever you become but sometimes it's fun to think and dream about the man you will grow up to be.
We are going house hunting tomorrow as daddy and I have decided that it's time we live our own life again independent from grandma and poppy. Hopefully we will find somewhere quickly and then you, daddy and mummy can be a family on our own but still come and visit grandma often.
As I write this note you are sitting in front of me eating a bowl of cherios and watching postman pat. It's so good to see you feeling better, happy and eating. The last two weeks that you have been sick have felt very very long. It hurts me when your unwell and there is nothing I can do but hold you and try to tell you that you will get better soon. Im so glad your back to yourself now.
We are planning your dedication ceremony at church at the moment. It is happening in a couple of weeks and I'm quite excited about it. In the ceremony daddy and I will both make promises to raise you in a Christian home and to teach you about the lord as you grow up. While I hope one day you will also choose to be a Christian when your older the choice will be yours and if you choose to go another way we will never force our beliefs on you. That's for you alone to decide when your bigger.
Yesterday you drew your first picture little man using three colors red, blue and green. You were so excited seeing the color go on to the paper and now everytime you go in to the study you just want to draw. Perhaps we have a budding artist on our hands though with your love of music who knows. You will be what ever you become but sometimes it's fun to think and dream about the man you will grow up to be.
We are going house hunting tomorrow as daddy and I have decided that it's time we live our own life again independent from grandma and poppy. Hopefully we will find somewhere quickly and then you, daddy and mummy can be a family on our own but still come and visit grandma often.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Dear bubba,
Little man you are sick at the moment, sicker then you have ever been before, sick enough that yesterday afternoon we took you to hospital and they kept you in over night. The hospital is not 100% sure whats wrong, they think it's either a viral infection or severe tonsillitis but regardless of what it is you are sick. You have a high temperature, you have been vomiting and not keeping much down, your lethargic, your grizzly, clingy and so sad little man. It breaks my heart to see you this way and it hurts to know there isn't anything I can do to make it better. If I could I would take it away from you and deal with being sick myself instead of having to watch you go through this.
I'm too tired after spending all night awake at the hospital to write any more but I will tell you about your first hospital trip another time.
Get better little man, mummy loves you so much and just wants you to be well.
Little man you are sick at the moment, sicker then you have ever been before, sick enough that yesterday afternoon we took you to hospital and they kept you in over night. The hospital is not 100% sure whats wrong, they think it's either a viral infection or severe tonsillitis but regardless of what it is you are sick. You have a high temperature, you have been vomiting and not keeping much down, your lethargic, your grizzly, clingy and so sad little man. It breaks my heart to see you this way and it hurts to know there isn't anything I can do to make it better. If I could I would take it away from you and deal with being sick myself instead of having to watch you go through this.
I'm too tired after spending all night awake at the hospital to write any more but I will tell you about your first hospital trip another time.
Get better little man, mummy loves you so much and just wants you to be well.
Dear bubba,
Little man you are sick at the moment, sicker then you have ever been before, sick enough that yesterday afternoon we took you to hospital and they kept you in over night. The hospital is not 100% sure whats wrong, they think it's either a viral infection or severe tonsillitis but regardless of what it is you are sick. You have a high temperature, you have been vomiting and not keeping much down, your lethargic, your grizzly, clingy and so sad little man. It breaks my heart to see you this way and it hurts to know there isn't anything I can do to make it better. If I could I would take it away from you and deal with being sick myself instead of having to watch you go through this.
I'm too tired after spending all night awake at the hospital to write any more but I will tell you about your first hospital trip another time.
Get better little man, mummy loves you so much and just wants you to be well.
Little man you are sick at the moment, sicker then you have ever been before, sick enough that yesterday afternoon we took you to hospital and they kept you in over night. The hospital is not 100% sure whats wrong, they think it's either a viral infection or severe tonsillitis but regardless of what it is you are sick. You have a high temperature, you have been vomiting and not keeping much down, your lethargic, your grizzly, clingy and so sad little man. It breaks my heart to see you this way and it hurts to know there isn't anything I can do to make it better. If I could I would take it away from you and deal with being sick myself instead of having to watch you go through this.
I'm too tired after spending all night awake at the hospital to write any more but I will tell you about your first hospital trip another time.
Get better little man, mummy loves you so much and just wants you to be well.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Dear bubba,
Another hot week is drawing to an end. Again we have been stuck inside most of the time to avoid the 40 degree day and hot sun outside. You are not happy staying inside this much but there is not much I can do about that. In the afternoon when shade has crept across the backyard we head outside and play on the swings and in your pool. We chase the dog, visit the vegetable garden and say hello to poppy's colorful birds. I love watching you outside running, giggling and having fun, even on days when I am exhausted or feeling a little sad it makes me smile.
Our inside time we have been filling by watching the wiggles or listening to music and dancing, reading books, having cool baths or showers together to cool down, napping and playing with toys. You are now at an age where you are taking more interest in your toys. You push you cars around, pretend to sweep with the toy broom like mummy does, play with all your musical toys and climb on everything. This week you have mastered two new skills in your inside play, stacking blocks on top of each other and putting the circle in the right hole on the shape sorter. You haven't quite got the other shapes mastered yet and get frustrated with them as you don't quite understand yet how to make the angles fit but everyday you get closer to it.
We have started a new activity this week. Every Wednesday morning we now go to something called tumble tots. Here you can run around with other little ones, climb safely and have fun singing and dancing. The group leader is trained in physical development for little ones and helps you do things like somersaults correctly. (You loved the somersault and wanted more)
This week after tumble tots we went and looked at all the local daycare centers. Baby boy I love you so much, love spending time with you, watching you grow and learn however I am not well at the moment and my illness is impacting my ability to give you enough stimulation because of this daddy and I have decided to send you to daycare for two days a week. My heart breaks at the idea of having to send you and not being able to look after you all on my own. I feel like I am failing at being a good mummy if I can't do it and I hate the idea that someone else will be looking after you those two days. I know that you will do more at daycare then I can do with you simply due to them having facilities that we don't. I know you will get to interact with other children and start learning how to share and get along with people other then your family. I know you will have a chance to make friends and learn to be independent but still my heart breaks. You are still so little, so young and everything in my heart tells me that your too young for this, that you need the stability of having mummy there all the time not other people. I hate the idea of you crying and someone else giving you comfort, of you doing new things that someone else will see before I do but little man if I am going to be the best mummy I can to you, if I want to be able to do more with you the days that you are home and be well enough to really get the most of them I need those two days too see my doctors and rest. If either you or I can not cope with being apart yet then I can just keep you home with me so for now we will call this a trial. I really hope that you start making some little friends, and have lots of fun playing with new toys and outside play equipment. At this centre you can go outside even on hot days because outside is all shaded and undercover.
So about this daycare centre. It's called Wirrabirra and it's not for profit this means all money raised goes back into the centre. It is run by a committee of people with children at the centre and the staff all have lots of experience. The ladies in the baby room are very nice and they all loved you when we met the other day. They will provide all your food and nappies while you are there and you will even have your own cot for nap time. On Monday we are going in for a play so you can get to know the place and the staff better before your first day on your own at the end of the week.
Anyway little man it's time to sleep now. I love you and always will
Mummy.
Another hot week is drawing to an end. Again we have been stuck inside most of the time to avoid the 40 degree day and hot sun outside. You are not happy staying inside this much but there is not much I can do about that. In the afternoon when shade has crept across the backyard we head outside and play on the swings and in your pool. We chase the dog, visit the vegetable garden and say hello to poppy's colorful birds. I love watching you outside running, giggling and having fun, even on days when I am exhausted or feeling a little sad it makes me smile.
Our inside time we have been filling by watching the wiggles or listening to music and dancing, reading books, having cool baths or showers together to cool down, napping and playing with toys. You are now at an age where you are taking more interest in your toys. You push you cars around, pretend to sweep with the toy broom like mummy does, play with all your musical toys and climb on everything. This week you have mastered two new skills in your inside play, stacking blocks on top of each other and putting the circle in the right hole on the shape sorter. You haven't quite got the other shapes mastered yet and get frustrated with them as you don't quite understand yet how to make the angles fit but everyday you get closer to it.
We have started a new activity this week. Every Wednesday morning we now go to something called tumble tots. Here you can run around with other little ones, climb safely and have fun singing and dancing. The group leader is trained in physical development for little ones and helps you do things like somersaults correctly. (You loved the somersault and wanted more)
This week after tumble tots we went and looked at all the local daycare centers. Baby boy I love you so much, love spending time with you, watching you grow and learn however I am not well at the moment and my illness is impacting my ability to give you enough stimulation because of this daddy and I have decided to send you to daycare for two days a week. My heart breaks at the idea of having to send you and not being able to look after you all on my own. I feel like I am failing at being a good mummy if I can't do it and I hate the idea that someone else will be looking after you those two days. I know that you will do more at daycare then I can do with you simply due to them having facilities that we don't. I know you will get to interact with other children and start learning how to share and get along with people other then your family. I know you will have a chance to make friends and learn to be independent but still my heart breaks. You are still so little, so young and everything in my heart tells me that your too young for this, that you need the stability of having mummy there all the time not other people. I hate the idea of you crying and someone else giving you comfort, of you doing new things that someone else will see before I do but little man if I am going to be the best mummy I can to you, if I want to be able to do more with you the days that you are home and be well enough to really get the most of them I need those two days too see my doctors and rest. If either you or I can not cope with being apart yet then I can just keep you home with me so for now we will call this a trial. I really hope that you start making some little friends, and have lots of fun playing with new toys and outside play equipment. At this centre you can go outside even on hot days because outside is all shaded and undercover.
So about this daycare centre. It's called Wirrabirra and it's not for profit this means all money raised goes back into the centre. It is run by a committee of people with children at the centre and the staff all have lots of experience. The ladies in the baby room are very nice and they all loved you when we met the other day. They will provide all your food and nappies while you are there and you will even have your own cot for nap time. On Monday we are going in for a play so you can get to know the place and the staff better before your first day on your own at the end of the week.
Anyway little man it's time to sleep now. I love you and always will
Mummy.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Little man i feel bad that I haven't been writing as much to you in recent months. For the most part it's just a result of us being home often and not doing much.
We did have an adventure last week though. Grandma, Aunty Becky, the twins, Brayden, you and I all went to the beach. You loved your swim in the cool water and I even allowed you to have a taste of strawberry ice-cream which you loved.
This week has been really hot and as a result you have not been sleeping well making you cranky and tired during the day. With this crankiness you have started hurting mummy, daddy and grandma by scratching us, pinching us and pulling your hair. You may only be little but it hurts and I am reaching the end of my rope. I understand that you are doing it out of frustration. I understand that it's normal for your age but I just don't know how to teach you that it's not okay to hurt someone.
Today I snapped and gave you a little smack on the hand. Now I know other people would think that was nothing but I promised that I wouldn't smack and now I've broken that promise. The shock and hurt I saw in your eyes broke my heart little one. I'm sorry I acted in anger little man and I will try my hard to never react like that again. Next time I will just walk away for a moment and calm down.
Right now I want to say that it is NEVER okay to hurt someone because you are angry. Angel clouds your thinking and makes you do things you will later regret. Remember there is never any shame in walking away from a situation until you calm down. I did the wrong thing in smacking you regardless of the fact that it wasn't much more than a light tap. I love you little one and I'm sorry.
Love always mummy
We did have an adventure last week though. Grandma, Aunty Becky, the twins, Brayden, you and I all went to the beach. You loved your swim in the cool water and I even allowed you to have a taste of strawberry ice-cream which you loved.
This week has been really hot and as a result you have not been sleeping well making you cranky and tired during the day. With this crankiness you have started hurting mummy, daddy and grandma by scratching us, pinching us and pulling your hair. You may only be little but it hurts and I am reaching the end of my rope. I understand that you are doing it out of frustration. I understand that it's normal for your age but I just don't know how to teach you that it's not okay to hurt someone.
Today I snapped and gave you a little smack on the hand. Now I know other people would think that was nothing but I promised that I wouldn't smack and now I've broken that promise. The shock and hurt I saw in your eyes broke my heart little one. I'm sorry I acted in anger little man and I will try my hard to never react like that again. Next time I will just walk away for a moment and calm down.
Right now I want to say that it is NEVER okay to hurt someone because you are angry. Angel clouds your thinking and makes you do things you will later regret. Remember there is never any shame in walking away from a situation until you calm down. I did the wrong thing in smacking you regardless of the fact that it wasn't much more than a light tap. I love you little one and I'm sorry.
Love always mummy
Thursday, January 20, 2011
New words
When I look at you beautiful boy I don't see the tiny baby you were a year ago anymore now I see a little boy, a toddler who is starting to explore the world, a little soul who I must guide, teach and protect and the reason that I know what love is. When I think of all the things you need to learn in the next 17 or do years I am afraid. I'm afraid I won't do a good job, afraid that i will mess up somewhere along the way and that you will resent me for it or that you won't know the things you need to be able to stand on your own two feet. I will always strive to do the best for you babyboy, strive to teach you what you need to know and always love and support you.
Tonight I sat looking through photos of you as a newborn and I am amazed at how much you have changed. To go from looking like a doll to being a little child walking on your own and starting to talk is amazing. This week you have learnt new words. To the list we already had (mum, dad, nan) we now have yes and no as well as hello and today I am sure I heard you day Brayden. Hello you learnt from grandmas pet cocky who is often saying hello. With so many new words I wonder how long it will be until we are having real conversations, until you can tell me what's on your mind, what you want or need and until I hear you say I love you mummy, I can't wait to hear those words.
Love always
Mummy.
Tonight I sat looking through photos of you as a newborn and I am amazed at how much you have changed. To go from looking like a doll to being a little child walking on your own and starting to talk is amazing. This week you have learnt new words. To the list we already had (mum, dad, nan) we now have yes and no as well as hello and today I am sure I heard you day Brayden. Hello you learnt from grandmas pet cocky who is often saying hello. With so many new words I wonder how long it will be until we are having real conversations, until you can tell me what's on your mind, what you want or need and until I hear you say I love you mummy, I can't wait to hear those words.
Love always
Mummy.
Monday, January 10, 2011
As I type thus little man you are happily watching in the night garden. I don't particularly like letting you watch tv as I want you to learn to entertain yourself rather then switching on the tv and zoning out but I let you watch a tiny little bit most mornings so that I can eat breakfast otherwise I will not have the energy to keep up with you. You love watching in the night garden, other shows you like are Thomas the tank engine, waybulu , play school, sesame street and the wiggles.
It's been over a week since I last updated your journal my little man. Last week we had a bad week, your sleep was all over the place and you were getting up for the day before the clock even showed five am. I was so exhausted getting up that early that every-time you slept I did too but that meant I had little time left to update your journal. Not much happened last week, it was very hot so we were stuck inside and watched more tv than I would like, we went shopping on Friday and you played with your cousins over the weekend. Your new trick this week was starting to run. It seems like only yesterday you were crawling and now you are trying to run everywhere.
Anyway little man there's not much else to say right now so I am going to stop typing and come and read you a story. (yesterday we read ten of them)
Love always
Mummy.
It's been over a week since I last updated your journal my little man. Last week we had a bad week, your sleep was all over the place and you were getting up for the day before the clock even showed five am. I was so exhausted getting up that early that every-time you slept I did too but that meant I had little time left to update your journal. Not much happened last week, it was very hot so we were stuck inside and watched more tv than I would like, we went shopping on Friday and you played with your cousins over the weekend. Your new trick this week was starting to run. It seems like only yesterday you were crawling and now you are trying to run everywhere.
Anyway little man there's not much else to say right now so I am going to stop typing and come and read you a story. (yesterday we read ten of them)
Love always
Mummy.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Happy new year 2011
Happy new year little man,
Another year has come and I hope that it's a healthier, happier and more secure year for our little family. Last year was a difficult one for all of us, we experienced some really low points but throughout it all we kept going, despite what ever the universe was throwing at us you kept us going little man, kept me striving to find a home for us, kept me fighting to keep our little family together and kept me striving to make a better life for you to live. The world can be a hard place sometimes but we need to keep in mind that there is always someone worse of than us.
Your doing so well with walking now Samuel and it is now the primary way you get around, you only crawl when you want to get somewhere in a hurry the rest of the time you walk. It's kind of scary to think how much you have changed in the last year and amazes me that you are now a toddler and not so much a baby anymore.
So thank you little man for getting me through the last year. I look forward to sharing many more with you.
Love mummy
Another year has come and I hope that it's a healthier, happier and more secure year for our little family. Last year was a difficult one for all of us, we experienced some really low points but throughout it all we kept going, despite what ever the universe was throwing at us you kept us going little man, kept me striving to find a home for us, kept me fighting to keep our little family together and kept me striving to make a better life for you to live. The world can be a hard place sometimes but we need to keep in mind that there is always someone worse of than us.
Your doing so well with walking now Samuel and it is now the primary way you get around, you only crawl when you want to get somewhere in a hurry the rest of the time you walk. It's kind of scary to think how much you have changed in the last year and amazes me that you are now a toddler and not so much a baby anymore.
So thank you little man for getting me through the last year. I look forward to sharing many more with you.
Love mummy
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