My little man you are so beautiful, everyone seems to fall in love
with you the moment they lay eyes on you and want to cuddle you and
talk to you. Your so young and already charming the ladies.

We haven't done much the last few days, a little shopping, a little
swimming which you love, a walk through the Sunday markets where nana
spoilt you and a nice walk along the strand.

Townsville is a beautiful place with a gorgeous beach, views to
magnetic island and a backdrop of castle hill. It is a city where even
in the heart of the city you can still feel the power of nature coming
from the beach and castle hill standing over it all like some sort of
immobile guard. It is hot and humid here but still I like it here. I
don't think I would be happy to live here but as a place to visit it's
a nice retreat away from our normal life. One day when you are older I
will bring you here.

Something has been playing on my mind today little man. I have been
feeling guilty that I stopped expressing a month ago and that had led
me to wonder if I gave up trying to breastfeed too soon as well. It's
stupid thinking these things, I know I did everything I could but I
can't help but wonder what if? I wonder if I really did everything I
could yet I know I tried everything. I wanted to breadtfeed so badly,
wanted to give you the best start to life and I can't help but feel
like my best wasn't good enough.

Enough from me now my beautiful boy, it's time I sleep before you wake
for another feed. I love you beautiful.

Mummy.