Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy birthday dear Samuel, Happy Birthday to you.
Your first birthday, one year since I held you in my arms for the first time, one year since I became a mother and learnt that I had never really known love before. Before you came along my world was a very different place and not one that I really wanted to live in but you little man has changed all of that. You have my world so much brighter, you have brought so much love and joy into my life and at the same time having you in my life has taught me a lot of life lessons. If only I could put how much I love you into words but considering I have already been trying for a year I don't think that is going to happen anytime soon.
You and I had a great day today for your Birthday, this morning we all got up and unwrapped some of your presents before daddy left for work. The pile of presents was so big little man that we had to stagger their opening throughout the entire day and by bedtime you still had two to open. You have received so many things for your birthday but i'll try and list it all here for you.
Walker/Ride on
My first wagon/ride on
Talking telephone
bathtoys
Froggy swimming pool
Drink bottle (stainless steel)
Babylegs leggings/tights
Little people town centre set
Little people dump truck
Stacker dump truck
Ball popper
Fridge Farm
Jelly bath
Giggle and Hoot CD
Books
Clothes
More Bath toys
Thats all I can remember at the moment if i remember anything else I will add it to the list.
We spent the day together, this morning we playd outside on the swings before it got to hot and then we went shopping and said hello to Santa. After shopping we came home and I gave you a special birthday lunch that included fairy bread, cherrys, strawberrys, plum, turkey and rice cake. You ate a lot of that and loved the fairy bread. After lunch we played with your toys and watched some giggle and hoot xmas special together before your nap. Then this afternoon we played outside and you got to try out your new pool before dinner where we had party food and your first taste of ice cream in an ice cream cake, then it was time for bath and bed and you were so tired you went to sleep very quickly.
It was a great first birthday and I look forward to many more with you.
Love Mum
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
A year since labour
One year ago today I was in labour with you my little man. At this time your Uncle Andrew had just arrived despite me having told daddy that I was fine and wouldn't need to go to the hospital for at least a couple of hours yet, I had asked daddy to call him and let him know that we would need his assistance at some stage that evening. Daddy did call him but it was to tell him that we needed him now. I was so angry with Uncle Andrew arrived, I yelled at them, told them I wasn't ready to go to the hospital and to go away but you know what little man less then half an hour later we were at the hospital. Within ten minutes of Uncle Andrew arriving I was in a lot of pain and too tired to stand up in the shower anymore and so I gave in and said okay time to go. I wonder if Uncle Andrew had not have arrived until later how much longer I would have stayed at home for.
We arrived at the hospital right on 7pm, daddy stayed with me while Uncle Andrew took nanna to get some dinner then nanna stayed with mummy while Uncle Andrew took dad to get some dinner. I am quite amused that in the middle of quite painful contractions I was organising everyone to go and eat and how they could do it and not leave me alone. While nanna was out getting dinner the midwife helped us settle into our room and put the monitor on me so that we knew you were doing okay, then daddy went and nanna and mum sat there talking in between contractions and finding the things from mummy's bag that she wanted, once daddy got back I got into the bath where i stayed for most of your labour. There was a clock in the room that I was laboring in and from time to time I looked at it wondering if you were going to make it on the 23rd or if you would match all my predictions and be a Christmas baby, the midwifes were all telling me that you would be here by midnight but as we know you didn't quite make it and instead chose to be born just after midnight eight minutes into Christmas eve.
Today I have thought a lot about what it was like to be pregnant with you and what labour was like. As the day passes I have looked at the clock and seen times that i remember from that day, the time that I was at the Ob's, the time I got a backache and then realized later that it was coming and going, timing contractions and realizing they were regular and I remember all the excitement that was coming from Daddy and nanna while I remained calm and focused on the fact that I was soon to meet you.
Tomorrow is your first birthday, I can't beleive how fast this year has gone but I will save going on about that for tomorrow and instead talk about you now and how you have been this week. We have spent a lot of time inside this week as it has been too hot or wet to go outside and play. Your walking is becoming more stable and constant and you are being your normal happy self for the most part. Today you said a new word, you were sitting at the back door saying come come come and when I did you looked up at me and smiled that beautiful smile or yours my clever little man. Other tricks you are doing this week is to blow raspberrys when ever somebody says 'bless you' and saying an-mum-mum for grandmum/grandma. Its all so cute and beautiful to watch you growing up like this and learning new things every day.
I love you little man, I loved you from the moment you were conceived, I loved you while I carried you inside my womb, I loved you the moment I held you in my arms for the first time and I love you still now. Every day my love has only grown stronger, every day I have grown more and more thankful for you my little boy. I will love you forever.
Mummy.
We arrived at the hospital right on 7pm, daddy stayed with me while Uncle Andrew took nanna to get some dinner then nanna stayed with mummy while Uncle Andrew took dad to get some dinner. I am quite amused that in the middle of quite painful contractions I was organising everyone to go and eat and how they could do it and not leave me alone. While nanna was out getting dinner the midwife helped us settle into our room and put the monitor on me so that we knew you were doing okay, then daddy went and nanna and mum sat there talking in between contractions and finding the things from mummy's bag that she wanted, once daddy got back I got into the bath where i stayed for most of your labour. There was a clock in the room that I was laboring in and from time to time I looked at it wondering if you were going to make it on the 23rd or if you would match all my predictions and be a Christmas baby, the midwifes were all telling me that you would be here by midnight but as we know you didn't quite make it and instead chose to be born just after midnight eight minutes into Christmas eve.
Today I have thought a lot about what it was like to be pregnant with you and what labour was like. As the day passes I have looked at the clock and seen times that i remember from that day, the time that I was at the Ob's, the time I got a backache and then realized later that it was coming and going, timing contractions and realizing they were regular and I remember all the excitement that was coming from Daddy and nanna while I remained calm and focused on the fact that I was soon to meet you.
Tomorrow is your first birthday, I can't beleive how fast this year has gone but I will save going on about that for tomorrow and instead talk about you now and how you have been this week. We have spent a lot of time inside this week as it has been too hot or wet to go outside and play. Your walking is becoming more stable and constant and you are being your normal happy self for the most part. Today you said a new word, you were sitting at the back door saying come come come and when I did you looked up at me and smiled that beautiful smile or yours my clever little man. Other tricks you are doing this week is to blow raspberrys when ever somebody says 'bless you' and saying an-mum-mum for grandmum/grandma. Its all so cute and beautiful to watch you growing up like this and learning new things every day.
I love you little man, I loved you from the moment you were conceived, I loved you while I carried you inside my womb, I loved you the moment I held you in my arms for the first time and I love you still now. Every day my love has only grown stronger, every day I have grown more and more thankful for you my little boy. I will love you forever.
Mummy.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Celebrating you - Your 1st birthday party
Dear Samuel,
We hosted your birthday party on the weekend little man, I wish that we could have done it closer to your actual birthday but at least by doing it early people were able to come and you didn't miss out.
Grandma and I spent a lot of Friday and most of Saturday getting ready for your party, we made lots of yummy food and cleaned the house, I blew up balloons and hung the decorations and then before I knew it people began arriving.
You enjoyed crawling around behind the other children, you loved being pushed on the swing and squealed with delight when people were picking you up and throwing you up in the air. It was clear that you were having a lot of fun and that although you are only a little boy that didn't stop you enjoying the company of other children.
Before food we decided it was time to unwrap your birthday presents. You love tearing the wrapping paper of things and like all little ones i think you almost got more enjoyment out of the wrapping. For your birthday you received a little push along/ride along wagon, a talking and singing phone, clothes and bath toys. You still have presents from us, grandma and poppy and nanna coming on your actual birthday.
For your birthday food we had a BBQ with lots of different meats, salads and other things. You tried a little sausage but didn't like it much, the little bit of hamburger you fed to the dog. You enjoyed the chicken, loved chewing on carrot sticks and celery and even tasted kabana and a tiny cube of cheese.
After dinner it was time for cake and you my little man got your first taste of the lovely sweet goodness that is cake. You loved it and ate a good chunk as well as enjoyed playing with it. This year your birthday cake was a buttercake with orange icing it was in the shape of a 1 with blue icing and blue and green smarties and you loved it.
All in all your party was a success, everyone enjoyed themselves including you and we got through the evening without any problems.
I can't believe you are almost one already.
Love always
Mummy
We hosted your birthday party on the weekend little man, I wish that we could have done it closer to your actual birthday but at least by doing it early people were able to come and you didn't miss out.
Grandma and I spent a lot of Friday and most of Saturday getting ready for your party, we made lots of yummy food and cleaned the house, I blew up balloons and hung the decorations and then before I knew it people began arriving.
You enjoyed crawling around behind the other children, you loved being pushed on the swing and squealed with delight when people were picking you up and throwing you up in the air. It was clear that you were having a lot of fun and that although you are only a little boy that didn't stop you enjoying the company of other children.
Before food we decided it was time to unwrap your birthday presents. You love tearing the wrapping paper of things and like all little ones i think you almost got more enjoyment out of the wrapping. For your birthday you received a little push along/ride along wagon, a talking and singing phone, clothes and bath toys. You still have presents from us, grandma and poppy and nanna coming on your actual birthday.
For your birthday food we had a BBQ with lots of different meats, salads and other things. You tried a little sausage but didn't like it much, the little bit of hamburger you fed to the dog. You enjoyed the chicken, loved chewing on carrot sticks and celery and even tasted kabana and a tiny cube of cheese.
After dinner it was time for cake and you my little man got your first taste of the lovely sweet goodness that is cake. You loved it and ate a good chunk as well as enjoyed playing with it. This year your birthday cake was a buttercake with orange icing it was in the shape of a 1 with blue icing and blue and green smarties and you loved it.
All in all your party was a success, everyone enjoyed themselves including you and we got through the evening without any problems.
I can't believe you are almost one already.
Love always
Mummy
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
I know I talk often about how quickly you are growing up and all the new things you are doing but in the last twenty four hours we have had three things to add to the list.
1. Your one year old molars broke through.
2. You clapped for the first time.
But the biggest one of all the firsts apart from your first word occurred today. Today my little man I really knew for the first time that your time as a baby is almost over because today my beautiful little boy you stood up and walked. It was such a proud moment for mummy and daddy seeing you walk and so very exciting but it's also touched with a tiny bit of sadness as it means we are saying goodbye to one stage and moving on to the next. How I look forward to watching you grow, to helping you learn and exploring the world from your point of view but a little part of me will always miss my little baby boy.
This is the way of life, things grow, things change and there is nothing we can do to stop that nor should we aspire to trying to stop that natural rhythm of life. Change can be and often is scary but we must try to remain flexible and allow the universe to lay the path we need to walk out before us. Fighting change does nothing but hurt the person fighting it yet embracing change can sometimes open whole new worlds to explore in front of us. Little man I embrace the changes that are occurring in our lives, I embrace the changes and new things in you and look forward to everyday with you seeing what new things we may discover together that day. I love you my little boy and you will always be my little baby even if you are almost a toddler now.
Love always
Mum
1. Your one year old molars broke through.
2. You clapped for the first time.
But the biggest one of all the firsts apart from your first word occurred today. Today my little man I really knew for the first time that your time as a baby is almost over because today my beautiful little boy you stood up and walked. It was such a proud moment for mummy and daddy seeing you walk and so very exciting but it's also touched with a tiny bit of sadness as it means we are saying goodbye to one stage and moving on to the next. How I look forward to watching you grow, to helping you learn and exploring the world from your point of view but a little part of me will always miss my little baby boy.
This is the way of life, things grow, things change and there is nothing we can do to stop that nor should we aspire to trying to stop that natural rhythm of life. Change can be and often is scary but we must try to remain flexible and allow the universe to lay the path we need to walk out before us. Fighting change does nothing but hurt the person fighting it yet embracing change can sometimes open whole new worlds to explore in front of us. Little man I embrace the changes that are occurring in our lives, I embrace the changes and new things in you and look forward to everyday with you seeing what new things we may discover together that day. I love you my little boy and you will always be my little baby even if you are almost a toddler now.
Love always
Mum
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Hello little man,
It's time for another quick letter from your mummy since its been a little over a week since I last wrote you. The past week here in Perth has been hot and with the heat you have not quite been yourself. You have been sleeping more and off your food as well as being less tolerant of the things that annoy you. You love going outside but in the heat of the past week we have had to wait until the sun is starting to go down before letting you out. This has made you not happy, everytime you see someone outside and your not you throw a tantrum and start banging on the door desparate to go out and join them. I hate seeing you throw tantrums, hate seeing you unhappy but I also don't want to risk you getting sunburnt or heatstroke.
Our family has a history of skin cancers due to our pale skin little man and I really don' want you to have to deal with that. We are trying to teach you that your not allowed to play outside without a hat on but you hate your hat and more often then not will throw a tantrum and try your hardest to pull it off your head, you are getting better at wearing it though so I think you are starting to get the idea. As you grow older little man I hope that you remain sun smart. It may seem annoying to have to put sunscreen and a hat on before you go outside but its important little man, skin cancer can kill, its not just a case of cut it out, stich up the hole and you will be fine. At this point in time skin cancers are one of the highest death rates for cancers.
This week we have begun to wean you from the dummy. Your dummy is now only used as night or on car trips when your tired. I thought that you would be so angry and upset at not having it during the day but you are doing well. We began by taking it off you as soon as we got up and putting it in your cot then we moved on to asking you to put your dummy in the cot and say goodbye to them. Now less than a week later you drop them in your cot and wave goodbye to them without promting. We are doing so well with getting rid of it during the day that I am hoping we can wean them at night early in the new year.
I can't beleive that we are in December already. Last year the start of December had me feeling excited as it meant that we were on the final stretch to being able to meet you this year I am excited because it means that we are about to celebrate your first birthday and first christmas. (I don't count the christmas that you spend in the nursery at the hospital when you were a day old)
I love you little man, always
Mummy
It's time for another quick letter from your mummy since its been a little over a week since I last wrote you. The past week here in Perth has been hot and with the heat you have not quite been yourself. You have been sleeping more and off your food as well as being less tolerant of the things that annoy you. You love going outside but in the heat of the past week we have had to wait until the sun is starting to go down before letting you out. This has made you not happy, everytime you see someone outside and your not you throw a tantrum and start banging on the door desparate to go out and join them. I hate seeing you throw tantrums, hate seeing you unhappy but I also don't want to risk you getting sunburnt or heatstroke.
Our family has a history of skin cancers due to our pale skin little man and I really don' want you to have to deal with that. We are trying to teach you that your not allowed to play outside without a hat on but you hate your hat and more often then not will throw a tantrum and try your hardest to pull it off your head, you are getting better at wearing it though so I think you are starting to get the idea. As you grow older little man I hope that you remain sun smart. It may seem annoying to have to put sunscreen and a hat on before you go outside but its important little man, skin cancer can kill, its not just a case of cut it out, stich up the hole and you will be fine. At this point in time skin cancers are one of the highest death rates for cancers.
This week we have begun to wean you from the dummy. Your dummy is now only used as night or on car trips when your tired. I thought that you would be so angry and upset at not having it during the day but you are doing well. We began by taking it off you as soon as we got up and putting it in your cot then we moved on to asking you to put your dummy in the cot and say goodbye to them. Now less than a week later you drop them in your cot and wave goodbye to them without promting. We are doing so well with getting rid of it during the day that I am hoping we can wean them at night early in the new year.
I can't beleive that we are in December already. Last year the start of December had me feeling excited as it meant that we were on the final stretch to being able to meet you this year I am excited because it means that we are about to celebrate your first birthday and first christmas. (I don't count the christmas that you spend in the nursery at the hospital when you were a day old)
I love you little man, always
Mummy
Friday, November 26, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
In one month you will be one! I am always amazed at how fast time is flying little man, to think that soon we will stop talking in months and start talking in years is amazing. It feels like yesterday you entered my world but it was almost a year ago. In that time you have brought me so much joy and love, more then I could ever have imagined having in my life before you. I watch you when you are sleeping and smile knowing that you are my son and that you will always be in my life.
Recently I gave given thought to trying to give you a brother or sister, I want you to grow up with a sibling and to know the love and support that only comes from a brother or sister. I want you to have someone to play with, talk to and share things with that is closer to your age. Part of me wants to give you that while you are still young so that there is only a small age gap between you. With a small age gap you would be interested in similar things and play together better. Then I think it would be better to wait until you are at least old enough to understand rather then suddenly having to share daddy and I and nor understanding why. One day I hope to give you this but it may not be for a while.
Yesterday we had a good day. Daddy, you and I went into Perth for the first time and spent the day exploring the city and just enjoying being out. I am hoping that this weekend we can take you out somewhere, maybe to a park or the beach but it will depend on grandmas plans for the weekend.
I love you little man and nothing will ever change that.
Love always
Mummy.
Recently I gave given thought to trying to give you a brother or sister, I want you to grow up with a sibling and to know the love and support that only comes from a brother or sister. I want you to have someone to play with, talk to and share things with that is closer to your age. Part of me wants to give you that while you are still young so that there is only a small age gap between you. With a small age gap you would be interested in similar things and play together better. Then I think it would be better to wait until you are at least old enough to understand rather then suddenly having to share daddy and I and nor understanding why. One day I hope to give you this but it may not be for a while.
Yesterday we had a good day. Daddy, you and I went into Perth for the first time and spent the day exploring the city and just enjoying being out. I am hoping that this weekend we can take you out somewhere, maybe to a park or the beach but it will depend on grandmas plans for the weekend.
I love you little man and nothing will ever change that.
Love always
Mummy.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Dear Samuel,
It amazes me how quickly you are growing and learning. Everyday seems to bring something new and it is clear that you now put a little thought into some of your actions. For example if I am holding you and you want to get down you will throw something on the floor and then when I lean down to get it you squirm down. Every night after dinner you crawl straight to the bathroom for your bath because you know it's bath time. So many things you do on a daily basis now and I sit back watching you thinking that my tiny little baby is almost a toddler.
We have been in Perth for a week now and honestly I think moving here was the best thing for us. You are so happy here, you love playing outside on the swings or with the dog, love watching the birds or playing on the sew saw and you love going for drives in the car with grandma. You have settled in here so quickly little man. You are such as easy going little guy that you seem to adjust to anything and everything with ease and much quicker than daddy or I do.
I love you little man, moving here may have been a big thing but it was the right choice and you are proving that to me with how settled and happy you are everyday.
Love always mummy.
It amazes me how quickly you are growing and learning. Everyday seems to bring something new and it is clear that you now put a little thought into some of your actions. For example if I am holding you and you want to get down you will throw something on the floor and then when I lean down to get it you squirm down. Every night after dinner you crawl straight to the bathroom for your bath because you know it's bath time. So many things you do on a daily basis now and I sit back watching you thinking that my tiny little baby is almost a toddler.
We have been in Perth for a week now and honestly I think moving here was the best thing for us. You are so happy here, you love playing outside on the swings or with the dog, love watching the birds or playing on the sew saw and you love going for drives in the car with grandma. You have settled in here so quickly little man. You are such as easy going little guy that you seem to adjust to anything and everything with ease and much quicker than daddy or I do.
I love you little man, moving here may have been a big thing but it was the right choice and you are proving that to me with how settled and happy you are everyday.
Love always mummy.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
My dear little man,
Once again our whole world has turned upside down. A week ago today we found ourselves having to move out of nana's due to some issues her, daddy and I were having. With no money to our name and not knowing anyone in Townsville we could have been left in a dreadful position. It is only through the kindness, generosity and caring of friends, family and even complete strangers that we are okay without their assistance I honestly do not know where we would be right now but because there are people out there who care we had a roof over our head in a motel and a plan on how to escape a bad situation.
For a week we stayed in that motel because it kept us together as a family and kept you safe. The first few days though were hard. We spent the last of our money on food for you while I went without until some people heard about out situation and expecting nothing in return helped us out. They gave food and nappies as well as a little money to see us through. Someone even gave us gift cards to get new toys for you. Due to others some who have never even met us we have been okay. Little man I dearly wish that you never have to experience the situation we found ourselves in again and hope that when you are grown you never ever find yourself in a similar position but if you do little man remember that it is okay to ask for and accept help. Accepting help from another person does not make you weak, weakness would be if pride were to get in the way. Another thing little man that I wish is that you will always remember there are people worse of then you are and if you have the opportunity and means to help another person I hope that you will without expecting anything in return. There are too few people in this world willing to help a stranger anymore and I find that a sad sad thing.
Yesterday to escape the motel room and be in a better environment for you we flew all the way from Townsville to Perth where we are staying with grandma and poppy. It was a long way to travel but you were so good little man and slept most of the way. Today on our first day here you had a ball playing with new toys, meeting and starting to get to know grandma, poppy, Aunty Becky and your cousins. You have been a little unsettled today but overall you are doing so well. You even said a new word today. You said Ta when we were giving you something.
Moving to Perth is a huge thing for me little man as I've never been to this side of the country. Living with grandma and poppy is also scary as I don't them well. I barely know anyone here in Perth but you know what beautiful boy it doesn't matter because we are together, we have family around us and food in our bellies as well as a safe roof over our heads and at the end of the day that's all that matters. I moved here for you little man so that you will be safe, loved and supported by lots of family and so that our little family unit could stay together. Everything I do little boy is for you.
Love always
Mummy.
Once again our whole world has turned upside down. A week ago today we found ourselves having to move out of nana's due to some issues her, daddy and I were having. With no money to our name and not knowing anyone in Townsville we could have been left in a dreadful position. It is only through the kindness, generosity and caring of friends, family and even complete strangers that we are okay without their assistance I honestly do not know where we would be right now but because there are people out there who care we had a roof over our head in a motel and a plan on how to escape a bad situation.
For a week we stayed in that motel because it kept us together as a family and kept you safe. The first few days though were hard. We spent the last of our money on food for you while I went without until some people heard about out situation and expecting nothing in return helped us out. They gave food and nappies as well as a little money to see us through. Someone even gave us gift cards to get new toys for you. Due to others some who have never even met us we have been okay. Little man I dearly wish that you never have to experience the situation we found ourselves in again and hope that when you are grown you never ever find yourself in a similar position but if you do little man remember that it is okay to ask for and accept help. Accepting help from another person does not make you weak, weakness would be if pride were to get in the way. Another thing little man that I wish is that you will always remember there are people worse of then you are and if you have the opportunity and means to help another person I hope that you will without expecting anything in return. There are too few people in this world willing to help a stranger anymore and I find that a sad sad thing.
Yesterday to escape the motel room and be in a better environment for you we flew all the way from Townsville to Perth where we are staying with grandma and poppy. It was a long way to travel but you were so good little man and slept most of the way. Today on our first day here you had a ball playing with new toys, meeting and starting to get to know grandma, poppy, Aunty Becky and your cousins. You have been a little unsettled today but overall you are doing so well. You even said a new word today. You said Ta when we were giving you something.
Moving to Perth is a huge thing for me little man as I've never been to this side of the country. Living with grandma and poppy is also scary as I don't them well. I barely know anyone here in Perth but you know what beautiful boy it doesn't matter because we are together, we have family around us and food in our bellies as well as a safe roof over our heads and at the end of the day that's all that matters. I moved here for you little man so that you will be safe, loved and supported by lots of family and so that our little family unit could stay together. Everything I do little boy is for you.
Love always
Mummy.
Friday, October 15, 2010
My darling little man,
This week I have faced some major challenges, I have been very sad and feeling very lost but little man when ever I look at you i feel as though the sun is peeping out from behind the dark clouds. When I look at you I am found again and I find the strength to keep going. No matter what happens in my life I know that you need me and I will put you and your needs first until you are able to stand on your own two feet. You bring me such joy and happiness my baby, your smile and hugs make my heart sing and even when I feel sad it is enough to keep me going.
I love you my sunshine
Mummy
This week I have faced some major challenges, I have been very sad and feeling very lost but little man when ever I look at you i feel as though the sun is peeping out from behind the dark clouds. When I look at you I am found again and I find the strength to keep going. No matter what happens in my life I know that you need me and I will put you and your needs first until you are able to stand on your own two feet. You bring me such joy and happiness my baby, your smile and hugs make my heart sing and even when I feel sad it is enough to keep me going.
I love you my sunshine
Mummy
Thursday, October 7, 2010
There is nothing in this world I hate more then seeing you in pain my man and it's even worse when I feel responsible for that pain no matter how good the intention. Today was one of those days with good intentions but it still made me cry when I held you as you sobbed against me. The cause of your pain today was vaccinations. You were so happy before the needle giggling and chatting away and I felt so bad sitting there holding you knowing how soon you would be screaming and scream you did. For ten minutes you cried so loud that everyone was looking at us and then that turned into sobs. I held you close to me in the baby carrier and I cried with you little boy. You sobbed yourself to sleep and even once asleep you continued to sob every so often so I held you close heart two heart and just rocked you until you were still and quiet. I didn't want to put you down little man but I did so you could sleep soundly. To my amazement when you woke you gave me the biggest smile and cuddle and while you were clingy all evening you were giggling and bring your usual happy beautiful self except for anytime I tried to look at where you had the needle, when I did that you pushed me away and when I did gently touch you there you screamed so I know it must be sore. Right now little man I want to pick you up and bring you into bed with me but I don't want to wake you. Perhaps if you wake soon I will bring you into my bed and hold you close all night. I love you little man and want you to know that if I ever do cause you pain it's the last thing in the world I wanted. If I ever hurt you my beautiful boy it will only be by accident and I will do what ever I can to make it up to you.
Love mummy
Love mummy
Thursday, September 30, 2010
My little man,
I have typed you a few letters this week but due to a computer malfunction they have dissapeared. I'm so sad that I lost my words to you little man but there isn't anything I can do to get them back.
You are growing up so fast, I watch you when you are sleeping and can not believe how big you are already, it seems like yesterday I was holding you in my arms for the first time but that was over nine months ago. Today you are 40 weeks old. You were born after being inside me for exactly 40 weeks and after today you have been alive for longer then you were within my womb. You know little man, every Thursday night when I go to bed I think of the night you were born, I remember the little baby that I held in my arms and the promise I made you then that no matter what I will always love you and will always do the best I can for you. So far I have kept that promise and I have no intention of ever breaking it.
We have now been living in Townsville for four weeks and you have settled down really well. I think you like it here. Most days you are so happy and love playing with anything that takes your interest. This week I have taken you swimming a couple of times and you loved it. You are my little water baby, it doesn't matter where the water is if you can play in you are happy. On Monday we had a great photo shoot. You played in the dirt in the garden and then we took you to Rowes Bay where you played on the grass awhile. The highlight of the day however was when we introduced you to the ocean for the first time. You were overjoyed giggling as the water lapped around you and splashing away, you loved playing with the sand and getting wet in the water. I can't wait to take you for a proper beach trip once daddy is here.
This week your newest accomplishment is the ability to pull yourself up into a standing position and hold ourself there. You love standing and do it as often as you can. Nana thinks that you will be walking by your first birthday.
I love you little man
Mummy
I have typed you a few letters this week but due to a computer malfunction they have dissapeared. I'm so sad that I lost my words to you little man but there isn't anything I can do to get them back.
You are growing up so fast, I watch you when you are sleeping and can not believe how big you are already, it seems like yesterday I was holding you in my arms for the first time but that was over nine months ago. Today you are 40 weeks old. You were born after being inside me for exactly 40 weeks and after today you have been alive for longer then you were within my womb. You know little man, every Thursday night when I go to bed I think of the night you were born, I remember the little baby that I held in my arms and the promise I made you then that no matter what I will always love you and will always do the best I can for you. So far I have kept that promise and I have no intention of ever breaking it.
We have now been living in Townsville for four weeks and you have settled down really well. I think you like it here. Most days you are so happy and love playing with anything that takes your interest. This week I have taken you swimming a couple of times and you loved it. You are my little water baby, it doesn't matter where the water is if you can play in you are happy. On Monday we had a great photo shoot. You played in the dirt in the garden and then we took you to Rowes Bay where you played on the grass awhile. The highlight of the day however was when we introduced you to the ocean for the first time. You were overjoyed giggling as the water lapped around you and splashing away, you loved playing with the sand and getting wet in the water. I can't wait to take you for a proper beach trip once daddy is here.
This week your newest accomplishment is the ability to pull yourself up into a standing position and hold ourself there. You love standing and do it as often as you can. Nana thinks that you will be walking by your first birthday.
I love you little man
Mummy
Friday, September 17, 2010
Baby music class and your first non self inflicted hurt
Dear Samuel,
We had a fantastic day today so while it is fresh in my mind I want to write about it so that I don't forget. I decided to take you to a baby music lesson this morning, before we left I was unsure if you were going to get anything from it but still thought it would be a good outing and to my pleasure it turned out to be a great experience. You really enjoyed yourself, getting in to banging on the drums, waving the tamborine around and playing with anything that made noise. The joy on your face was priceless and will be a memory I carry forever with me. Your smile as you explored sound and rocked to the beat, your excitment at being around other babies and just watching you enjoying life lightened my heart more then anything has in a while. After todays experience I will be signing us up for the whole term when it begins in October. Going to music lessons means that you miss your morning sleep but to me the joy in you was worth it.
The only low point to the day was that while you were trying to play with a little boy he bit you. In the middle of class you let out the loudest scream I have ever heard from you. It only took you five minutes to forget about the bite and start smiling and having fun again but for those five minutes you clung to me and cried your little heart out. As soon as I saw the bite mark my heart broke for you little man. You were so upset i think mostly from the shock of someone else hurting you and I wish that I could have protected you from that kind of hurt for longer then I have. I know that you will get hurt, I know that you will get into fights, be injured while playing sports and experience all the normal hurts that we all experience in our lives but I didn't want you to experience that so early. I am sorry I couldn't protect you from it for longer little man. Just remember that while I will not always be able to protect you I will always try my best too and where I can not protect you I will always be here to kiss it better and set you back on your feet. I love you my brave little man.
We had a fantastic day today so while it is fresh in my mind I want to write about it so that I don't forget. I decided to take you to a baby music lesson this morning, before we left I was unsure if you were going to get anything from it but still thought it would be a good outing and to my pleasure it turned out to be a great experience. You really enjoyed yourself, getting in to banging on the drums, waving the tamborine around and playing with anything that made noise. The joy on your face was priceless and will be a memory I carry forever with me. Your smile as you explored sound and rocked to the beat, your excitment at being around other babies and just watching you enjoying life lightened my heart more then anything has in a while. After todays experience I will be signing us up for the whole term when it begins in October. Going to music lessons means that you miss your morning sleep but to me the joy in you was worth it.
The only low point to the day was that while you were trying to play with a little boy he bit you. In the middle of class you let out the loudest scream I have ever heard from you. It only took you five minutes to forget about the bite and start smiling and having fun again but for those five minutes you clung to me and cried your little heart out. As soon as I saw the bite mark my heart broke for you little man. You were so upset i think mostly from the shock of someone else hurting you and I wish that I could have protected you from that kind of hurt for longer then I have. I know that you will get hurt, I know that you will get into fights, be injured while playing sports and experience all the normal hurts that we all experience in our lives but I didn't want you to experience that so early. I am sorry I couldn't protect you from it for longer little man. Just remember that while I will not always be able to protect you I will always try my best too and where I can not protect you I will always be here to kiss it better and set you back on your feet. I love you my brave little man.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Dear Samuel,
Today marks two weeks since we left the cold of southern Victoria to move to the top end of the country. Two weeks of living with nanna and two weeks of not seeing daddy. I know that I am missing daddy a lot and I think that you are too, every night when you hear his voice on the phone you begin to reach for it and crack it when I don't let you hold the phone. The only reason I don't let you hold it is because when I do you tend to hang up on daddy. Slowly we are getting use to life here, the weather is much nicer but quite a bit warmer then what we are use to so it is taking some adjusting too.
After a month of commando crawling you crawled for real yesterday. I'm a little sad that daddy wasn't here to see it but so happy to see you devloping and progressing. You are doing so well little man. Today when I was checking you gums I discovered another two toothypegs have come up over night. We went and visited your new doctor this morning and he was great with you. He weighed you and you are now weighing 8.8kg with a height measurement of around 68cm.
I love you little man
Mummy
Today marks two weeks since we left the cold of southern Victoria to move to the top end of the country. Two weeks of living with nanna and two weeks of not seeing daddy. I know that I am missing daddy a lot and I think that you are too, every night when you hear his voice on the phone you begin to reach for it and crack it when I don't let you hold the phone. The only reason I don't let you hold it is because when I do you tend to hang up on daddy. Slowly we are getting use to life here, the weather is much nicer but quite a bit warmer then what we are use to so it is taking some adjusting too.
After a month of commando crawling you crawled for real yesterday. I'm a little sad that daddy wasn't here to see it but so happy to see you devloping and progressing. You are doing so well little man. Today when I was checking you gums I discovered another two toothypegs have come up over night. We went and visited your new doctor this morning and he was great with you. He weighed you and you are now weighing 8.8kg with a height measurement of around 68cm.
I love you little man
Mummy
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
A few posts
30th august
Beautiful little man,
Tonight is our last night in Victoria, we leave here tomorrow morning headed for Queensland to live with Nanna in Townsville. It is a big move and I hope that it will be a good one for us. Daddy will not be with us at first but he will get to our new home as quickly as he can. At this point in time it looks like he will be six to eight weeks before joining us. It makes me sad that we will be away from daddy for so long and I know that we will both miss him as much as he will miss us, hopefully time will pass quickly and we will find ourselves altogether again before we know it. There are so many things I want to do with you in Townsville. I want to take you to swimming and music lessons, take you to the aquarium and explore Townsville with you. I want our life to be different up there, better then it has been here.
The last week had seen us busy packing and getting ready to leave. We have spent lots of time with our friends and in among all the busyness you have been your wonderful beautiful little self full of big smiles and gorgeous giggles. You have cut two more teeth this week , another on the bottom and one on the top and everyday you are getting closer to crawling. You even waved goodbye a couple of times this week you clever little man.
I don't know what the future holds for us little man but what ever it is we will face it together, no matter where we go, who we meet or what we do I will always be here for you.
Love
Mummy.
31st august
After a long days journey we have made it to our new home here in Townsville. The plane ride was long but I passed the time by making a new friend who lives here. The two of us chatted and played with you all the way here little man. You were a little unsettled tonight, so many new faces and somewhere you don't know I am not surprised you were out of sorts but now you are sound asleep in the portable cot next to me and I'm just about to go to sleep too.
Looking forward to starting our new life here with you when we wake tomorrow.
Mummy
5th September 2010
We have been in Townsville for five days now my little man and so far I am loving our life here. You are doing so well and seem to have adjusted to your new home quite well. Since we arrived you have been sleeping so much better then you did in Morwell. You have started only waking up once during the night and are doing two blocks of six hours sleep only waking for ten minutes around midnight before going back to sleep. Your daytime sleeps have also been better. With all the extra sleep you seem happier.
7th September
Little man you have another tooth. It wasn't that long ago you didn't have any and now you have four. Today you were giving me the cutest smile showing off those cute little toothy pegs and I just melted. Tonight I stood next to your cot for what felt like hours just watching you sleep and thinking about how wonderful my life is now your in my world.
Beautiful little man,
Tonight is our last night in Victoria, we leave here tomorrow morning headed for Queensland to live with Nanna in Townsville. It is a big move and I hope that it will be a good one for us. Daddy will not be with us at first but he will get to our new home as quickly as he can. At this point in time it looks like he will be six to eight weeks before joining us. It makes me sad that we will be away from daddy for so long and I know that we will both miss him as much as he will miss us, hopefully time will pass quickly and we will find ourselves altogether again before we know it. There are so many things I want to do with you in Townsville. I want to take you to swimming and music lessons, take you to the aquarium and explore Townsville with you. I want our life to be different up there, better then it has been here.
The last week had seen us busy packing and getting ready to leave. We have spent lots of time with our friends and in among all the busyness you have been your wonderful beautiful little self full of big smiles and gorgeous giggles. You have cut two more teeth this week , another on the bottom and one on the top and everyday you are getting closer to crawling. You even waved goodbye a couple of times this week you clever little man.
I don't know what the future holds for us little man but what ever it is we will face it together, no matter where we go, who we meet or what we do I will always be here for you.
Love
Mummy.
31st august
After a long days journey we have made it to our new home here in Townsville. The plane ride was long but I passed the time by making a new friend who lives here. The two of us chatted and played with you all the way here little man. You were a little unsettled tonight, so many new faces and somewhere you don't know I am not surprised you were out of sorts but now you are sound asleep in the portable cot next to me and I'm just about to go to sleep too.
Looking forward to starting our new life here with you when we wake tomorrow.
Mummy
5th September 2010
We have been in Townsville for five days now my little man and so far I am loving our life here. You are doing so well and seem to have adjusted to your new home quite well. Since we arrived you have been sleeping so much better then you did in Morwell. You have started only waking up once during the night and are doing two blocks of six hours sleep only waking for ten minutes around midnight before going back to sleep. Your daytime sleeps have also been better. With all the extra sleep you seem happier.
7th September
Little man you have another tooth. It wasn't that long ago you didn't have any and now you have four. Today you were giving me the cutest smile showing off those cute little toothy pegs and I just melted. Tonight I stood next to your cot for what felt like hours just watching you sleep and thinking about how wonderful my life is now your in my world.
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