My darling little man,
This week I have faced some major challenges, I have been very sad and feeling very lost but little man when ever I look at you i feel as though the sun is peeping out from behind the dark clouds. When I look at you I am found again and I find the strength to keep going. No matter what happens in my life I know that you need me and I will put you and your needs first until you are able to stand on your own two feet. You bring me such joy and happiness my baby, your smile and hugs make my heart sing and even when I feel sad it is enough to keep me going.

I love you my sunshine
Mummy

There is nothing in this world I hate more then seeing you in pain my man and it's even worse when I feel responsible for that pain no matter how good the intention. Today was one of those days with good intentions but it still made me cry when I held you as you sobbed against me. The cause of your pain today was vaccinations. You were so happy before the needle giggling and chatting away and I felt so bad sitting there holding you knowing how soon you would be screaming and scream you did. For ten minutes you cried so loud that everyone was looking at us and then that turned into sobs. I held you close to me in the baby carrier and I cried with you little boy. You sobbed yourself to sleep and even once asleep you continued to sob every so often so I held you close heart two heart and just rocked you until you were still and quiet. I didn't want to put you down little man but I did so you could sleep soundly. To my amazement when you woke you gave me the biggest smile and cuddle and while you were clingy all evening you were giggling and bring your usual happy beautiful self except for anytime I tried to look at where you had the needle, when I did that you pushed me away and when I did gently touch you there you screamed so I know it must be sore. Right now little man I want to pick you up and bring you into bed with me but I don't want to wake you. Perhaps if you wake soon I will bring you into my bed and hold you close all night. I love you little man and want you to know that if I ever do cause you pain it's the last thing in the world I wanted. If I ever hurt you my beautiful boy it will only be by accident and I will do what ever I can to make it up to you.

Love mummy